.special edition. coretan kisah idOp ku.

kenapa ‘special edition’ ? sebab kali ni, it will be a lil bit longer..

mengisahkan tentang idOp seorg insan yg bernama RAJA FATHIMAH... bermula dari tempat tinggal, keluarga tersayang dan suka duka kehidupannya.

Rumah usang di hujung jalan...

Di rumah ni lah tempat i membesar. Sejak lahir hingga sekarang.20 tahun. My mOm told me, ‘ini bukan rumah..ini STOR..’ hihi..x pernah kemas.tp makin bersepah & byk brg adela.. tp xpe..kat umah ni r mcm2 kenangan ade.. drpd 3 bilik, jadi 4..and then jadi 3 semula..hOho.. ‘STOR’ usang ni lah yang bagi perlindungan and kebahagiaan , suka dan duka kepada insan hina nih..

DADDY..

RAJA SABARUDIN BIN RAJA MAHMUD..

The only guy yang bergelar daddy to me..3 years ago, this handsome guy sihat.. punya kudrat..punya tulang 4 kerat yang gagah dan gigih bekerja..mencari rezeki untuk keluarga.. setiap hari yang dilalui, sangat meyakinkan bila ada daddy yang sihat disisi..sampai satu mase, tuhan ingin menguji di mana letak kesabaran seorang manusia.maka diberi ujian yang for me agak berat. Tapi berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul. Kecuaian seorang doctor, causing my dad to suffer at this bad. Tapi itulah dugaan.. hilang segala keupayaan.. keupayaan untuk bergerak.. mahupun untuk bercakap. To be honest, i miss his voice. I miss talking to him. To guide my life. Now everything’s changed. A lot..i need to be independent.. BERPIJAK DI ATAS KAKI SENDIRI.. hari2 daddy semakin x semangat utk berusaha to get well. Maybe sbb dah terlalu lama skt.or maybe sbb keupayaan dia ditarik secara tiba2, sekali gus semuanya..hmm..bersabarlah daddy.. your family is still there. To be with you no matter what happen..

mOmmy...

ZAINAB BINTI HARUN..

The greatest mother in the world..  award yang me,myself gave to her.. kesabaran , and ketabahan dia mengharungi liku2 hidup, mmg terbaik.. semakin hari,mOmmy semakin kurus. Runsing,penat and pilu tgk suami tercinta terlantar atas katil. X mampu buat ape2.. tapi mOmmy tetap sabar and kuat utk jaga daddy.. she told me this.. “i’ve promised to him..i’ll take care of him till the end of my life” ..god.. besar pengorbanan mOm..and me, hanya mampu menahan sebak di dada..hanya mampu menahan tangisan dr mengalir.. air mata yg hanya akan membuat luntur semangat yg ada..i have to be strong. To be with mOmmy.. to share the sadness.. i love u mOm..i love u so much.. thanks for taking care of daddy.

SISTER..

RAJA INTAN SULPHIDA..

Beautiful sister of mine.. she’s the eldest.. sgt bertanggungjawab.. walaupun seorang perempuan, tapi she has a strong heart. i know,sis yang paling sedih mase daddy tenat. Tapi believe me, setitik air mata pun dia xnak kuakan..dia yakin dad will be safe. “i will do everything and anything to safe his life. No matter what..trust me mOm..” and i do believe, this is where my mOm get the strength. From her daughter.. thanks to you akak..

Not to forget, to her husband..yang byk membantu. Yang menjadi tempat my sis bergantung harapan..berkongsi idOp..thanks for taking care of her..and give her much of happiness in her life..

The brother..

RAJA FAIZAL..

The only son in this family..ermm..we don’t talk much..but it doesn’t mean i don’t love him.. he’s my brother. No matter what, he is still my family. And i know, i will need him one day nanti. Eventho dia ni degil, panas baran sgt2..lazyyy...but still i can feel the responsibility in his self. Cuma perlu di ‘ketuk’ supaya keluar.. 

I don’t blame u for anythimg bro..u pun dah besar..already have ur own family. I believe, one day..u akan sedar bout’ what is happening in our family. And i hope it wont be too late for u to change. I love u bro.. u’re the only brother that i have.

MYSELF...

Hye.. i mcm ni jela.. the youngest in the family. Yang paling degil. Some might label me as a wild child. Maybe sebab i tinggal jaoh..away from my family..and life at the critical stage di saat daddy sedang tenat. Nobody care bout’ me..i can do anything..tanpa dilarang or dimarahi..but seriously,i’m regretting my past. For not being the best. And i know i cannot fix anything in the past. All that i can do is change. To be better.. since my dad sakit, i feel a lot of pressure in my life. Not to blame anyone. It just rintihan hati. I miss my old time. Saat daddy sihat..boleh hantar i gi penang..bole call and marah if i did the wrong thing. Bole bwk mOmmy gi jalan2 and release the stress..

In penang..friends are important..i live among them. They r my family..but still..it isn’t the same. Sometimes, i feel like i have no one to rely on..nobody can be trusted. I xtau la ape salah i till ade satu mase nih, i’ve been betrayed by friends.. 

This is bad..very bad..

Boyfriend.. the one that i love very much. When i see his face..it’s like a cure.. semua sadness, anger, stress..hilang..turn to be so happy. Maybe this is what people call LOVE..amir danial..

from the bottom of my tiny heart.there is a soul to be cherished. 

there is a mission to be accomplished.

to be awake,is to be alive.